thanks for bringing mi this hellish feeling even at my last few days of work
y should i even BOTHER to call him down for tea break!
Y cant i jus mind my own business and enjoy my last few days.
Y must i bring this SHIT to myself.
feeling all so Bloody hEll..
being sarcastic: THANKS MR JM, for DUN even BOTHER to reply my sms!
THANKS ALL for giving mi tis during my last few days at work!
i sincerely TAKE BACK wat i said from previous post abt those 2 colleauge.
SO, those past lunching wif them its a simple WASTE of time
SHould have spend time wif OTHER colleagues, whom i noe not AS long as i NOE them.
BUT AT LEAST THEY GIVE A DAMN CARE Abt MI.
ASK mi out cos im soon gonna leave.
CANT believe Y I EVEN bother to Space out my LUNCH break jus for THEM.
THEY JUS ARENT Worth IT.
IM sorry, but tht's how i felt right now and right this moment!
Yes, its jus mi writing down my thoughts and feelings right at this MOMENT..
I mITE regret it later for posting it!
BUT RIGHT NOW I DUN GIVE A DAMN CARE!
posted at 4:34 PM
A small compilation of heartful moments
Saturday, December 26, 2009
After watching 前线追踪, my heart totally flown out towards them. how i wish i could do something for them. wipe those tears away from their faces. wishing im tht mighty and could grant them any of their christmas wishes.
as compared to them, we are tht fortunate. but yet we do not realise tht and hardly ever easily satisfied. wat we had by our side is wat they need. let us not be easily tempted and learn to be contented. learn to be grateful and treasure with wat we alread have.
watever trouble we had, is incomparable to wat they have been through.
posted at 4:39 PM
(EDITED) Grateful & Thankful~~
Thursday, December 24, 2009
totally in a holiday mood, was freaking irritated wif myself for not taking a half day leave today..=.='' was dead tired when i woke up this morning, luckily the thoughts of bethany arriving today woke mi up abt 50% !! =X
come here for 4 hrs jus to earn those freaking few bucks. (cos its jus hourly pay, so mi wont be paid for the full day...unlike those who are Full time workers, no salary is deducted, so thus, they are paid for the half day leave).
For now, im done wif wat im supposed to do, nic not in, so decided to blog...^^
Next thurs is finally my last half day.
im totally grateful to our heavenly father for all his guidance and his words which brightens my days.. (read his words from jo's blog) Thankful tht im able to find this intern cum temp job during this holiday. and got to learn new things tht MITE be unrelated to wat im learning. & Met A super nice supervisor!! *totally grateful*
Nic always give encouraging words and he's always cheerful. (in my view) he mitez joke wif u or give u the expression tht ,'y so slow??' BUT after u r done, he said, 'WAH, so fast!! can take ur time arhz..' LOl...
Next up is abt a colleague who realli help mi through work and make my working days more meaningful and introducing mi to his fellow friends aka colleagues. Though JM makes mi '-___-!!!' sometimes, but den at the end of the day, all was fine. With all those mailing of msgs, my days arent tht boring..^_^ or else my days would be wat julie says: office work is damn boring...LOLX
When he left after my arrival of 2 weeks, im totally not used to the silence around mi.. and no one to chat wif through mails. =(
But luckily stil got Glen for lunch and some email chats. Somtimes it realli frustrate mi tht i reali had to tink dunno far or near to catch his meanings..-__-!!! haha! i guess he feels the same way as well... cos we realli had a big age gap. but he's realli a great accompaniment and a colleague to be wif..^_^ realli grateful & thankful ~~ i mite not be such a good accompaniment and i noe sometimes i mite reallli piss him off..>.< but jus bear wif mi for few more days k? N soon i will return to the role of being a student..keke =P
Also, i got to noe lucy, mary and reginald! Lucy is always so energetic, jus simply seeing her every morning, running here and there, attacking many walls and wars! and gain victory! is simply a scene tht brings u smilez and laughter! mary on the other hand is warm-hearted. like so motherly-kind; well, she IS a mom though...keke =P
after making such good colleagues and finally get to noe them better.. i was totally upset when received the news tht they are moving up to 17th floor... (Y is it always when i FINALLY got to noe someone better and they always left mi in the end) *pouts* it may simply jus 2 weeks of knowing them, but its jus so different without them around. and i had to once again adapt to different surroundings.
3 colleagues from another department came over and took over their places.. they maybe noisy, but at least its not as silence and so freezing cold after a week of lucy and mary's leaving.
1st week of Dec came pauline and gloria, 2 more new colleagues tt i got to noe.. haha! dun ask mi how i get to noe them....i've forgotten how.. =X guess jus normal hi and bye and den LUNCH.. den friends! probably cos we around the same age..^_^
Realli am glad to have meet them. =]
Wishing all of them and everyone whom i noe, loved and care.. MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YR! AND HAPPY BDAY to Jesus Christ!
(counting down days at axa: another 3 and a half working days =[ )
posted at 12:06 PM
rainy day~
Saturday, December 19, 2009
we were all realli lucky tht we were able to play badminton before it started to rain cats and dogs.
were supposed to meet at 9.50am at BK, but as usual, fen was late again.. haiz..=P it was realli fun and a good way of exercising.. had nearly forgotten the joy in playing badminton with a group of friends!! ^^
And next UP we had LUNCH.. and we so PROMISE ourselves not to have buffet after exercising, if not our exercise wont be of much efffect.. but den guess wat we had for lunch.. though it wasnt a buffet, but we still ordered quite ALOT of food which cant be finished at the end of it..-___-!!!!
too full to go home, hence we had a walk in the rain to hougang mall. walk here and there abit. ^_^
kinda weird but FUn! we had badminton in the rain, walk in the rain, cross-ing ROAD in the rain.. & running once we are out of the void deck and back to the rainy world...keke ;)
posted at 9:26 PM
soon!!!
Friday, December 18, 2009
all things always come to an end. My work at Axa is ending soon!! (a mixed of feelings) And so is year 2009 coming to an end.
hmmmm, had i done any fruitful thing tis year?? -nothing deep in impression tht i can recall off.
any up's and down's tis year? - too much to count, too much to recall..
found any ideal guy? - too few to be found, too little to even make a choice out of it.
-need a new wishlist?!?!? YESH! making wishlist is FUN, cos u noe NOTHING from the wishlist will be coming true. Thus, there's always new and changed of edited version of it. While still holding on to the hope tht ur bday, new yr or christmas wish will come true...Lolx
& nExt up!! counting down to beth's return, she's definitely growing bigger and bigger. seriously doubt i got any strength to carry her...=.='''
Last but not LEAST, Supervisor come approaching mi yester. tht he will treat mi to lunch to 'celebrate' my farewell! haiz, y on earth does tht word sounds so wrong...-___-!!!
posted at 11:26 PM
Glorious Sunshine
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Promise to stay cheerful regardless of any circumstances. ^^
A promise to someone and to myself.
together with her glorious sunshine! ^^
With ENG Clear Subtitles =D
yume no tsubomi
lyrics: Yume no tsubomi hiraku Mabushii sora wo aogi Mune ipaii hirogaru Yasashii kaori Kikoeru wa Koi no rizumu Kisetsu koe Ai ni kite ne Daisuki dayou Sasayaitara Sekaijuu ni Kikoechau kana Hazukashikute Utsubu miteta Watashi no te wo tori Hashiri desu
yume no tsubomi in ENG SUBTITLES!
BLUE MOON
posted at 11:39 PM
hmmmm
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
they are everything u wanted to be.
but u noe tht wwill neva happen..
cos u jus arent born to be one.
after posting tht status.
u r jus tht damn small in the ministry
So who cares even if u leave the ministry
seriously! NO ONE CARES *wake up*
no one will notice u r ever gone!
posted at 12:06 AM
Sunday, December 13, 2009
it might be a simply story for all.. but its also a ver touching story, at least it is to mi..^^
huan yang zhong de yi tiao chuan.
xiao bai chuan
posted at 6:04 PM
4 sisters!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
i've been too self-trapped lately..
tht i begins to wonder y im fighting all this feelings alone.
i wan someone to share this wif, i need someone to be there when i need a lean on the shoulder..
pple say siblings are usually close, cos they shared the same blood in their bodies.
but tht doesnt happen in my case.
we grew to understand and learn more abt each other ONLI when we were both matured.
we didnt build a good bonding as brother and sister since young..
cos he spends most of his time at cg tht i felt neglected.
and right now, wif all those sad stories happening.
im in need someone as close as siblings to chat wif.
and yesh, i did wonder, HOW i wish i DO have a bf to talk to, to re-place the position of my long-distance brother.
Jus when im in those thoughts.
XX reminded mi something tht i didnt recall at tht moment..
and when she said it, my heart is filled with warmth. *touched*
she said this simple 7 words: u still have 4 silblings, dun 4get...
im So LOVING her at tht moment! ^_^
posted at 11:25 PM
during work, after work
Monday, December 7, 2009
im sorry to have cos my friends and cousin to worry for mi. but i assure u everything's fine now..^_^
FRI: had a meetup wif serene and julie last fri at tampiness mall in search for my SHOES, the shoes tht had been in search for such a long while..=.=''' and a sinful nitez as well.. cos we had a ver fulling dinner at kopitam and den we had topless 5 ice-cream at swensen... end up we have no choice and HAD to take a walk, or else will end up havin a big belly at stomach..=.='' (definitely need exercise)
Sat: meet my colleague at office to tidy up her file.. she's realli ver nice and also ver da fang.. she wans to give mi some salary for this help, but i decline.. i 'ran', she 'chase'.. =.=''' haiz, end up im 'forced' to take tht 'salary'... luckily i meet elaine for lunch before hand, if not she so gonna wan treat mi for lunch at well.. hehs! had ktv session wif besties and fen's bf came along.. and we now noe y they get along so well..teeheex! shant say it over here..=D
had dinner at maxwell there, while it rain rain and rain. so we chat here and there, kindergarden, primary sch, sec sch, poly, and UNI! it was a long chat, since it was a long rain as well.
Sun: fen and mi attend my church morning service. finally im off from the sunday sch, which IM glad to have get out of there and take a break! (after everything) shuo juan lao shi stil wan mi to take over sallie's (*wince*) duty.. NO WAY! this sun is MINE, it feel like a whole yr has passed since i've gone for any adult service..
mon: today meet fen for lunch back at maxwell food centre.. and after which we went to ura there to take alook at their property development..
tibits all around my desk.. empty but yet untidy right?? =P
xiao mei and mi
Julie so shy
i wan tis POOh!! the whole range of it! =D
mi and fen at uAR
posted at 8:28 PM
I didnt noe tht this day would have come
Saturday, December 5, 2009
too much to take it, too much to digest..
guess there's always tis kind of prob tht occur in life..
regardless whether its in church or in sch...
no words can describe my feelings now..
the feeling of betrayal, loneliness and unable to forget...
one wave have not sub-side and another wave had arrived..
i dun tink i can survive this wave, not when the wave is caused by those whom i counted as 'close' friends in church..
i didnt tink tht im tht small and invisible tht even one tht wasnt in the ministry can be much more of a better visibility den those who are in the ministry.
i wasnt prepared to take such a wave and definitely NOT AT THIS MOMENT!
heart is breaking, tears are flowing.
which church friend can i talk to?
church friends WHOM had hurt mi THT MUCH..
i cant take anymore of this ..
can i run, can i avoid?
she promised, he promised.. but in their dictionary, promises are meant to be broken..
posted at 1:06 AM
good thing im stil able to blog at work..teeheex!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
was totally in no mood and strength to get out of my addictive bed. its like a magnet tht mi and my bed were inseparable.. haha! i noe, tht's ridiculous.. but its so hard to pull myself out of bed, giving wif the no. of hrs tht i slept the past few days..>.<
a new day for today, and realise my progress on this list of 800 plus of companies are super slow tht from tues til yester, i have onli done 160 companies.. so let's jus say i stil got another 600 plus of companies to go..=.=''
Ganbattnex! Min-na! =D
posted at 8:56 AM
wat's wrong wif my tongue??
Sunday, November 29, 2009
in a mid of a sentence, here's wat i also do:
saying starbuck as starhub; facebook as faceshop.
wat's wrong wif mi?!?!? =.=''
haizz...
had a great nitez wif julie, xx and her bf..
had dinner at fish & Co which end up is a smokey area..
had a realli good waiter tht served us which end up julie and they all named it as 'jie fu' Aka 'jeff fu'.
cos i was offered another fish since i told the waiter tht the sauce of the fish is not to my liking..
FREE fish LEhz! omgosh! im so stunned when he offered for a FREE change of another fish..
which by the way, i had alread eaten almost half of my fish when he made tht offer....
so paiseh tht i say its ok, nvm..
but den i guess he decided to ignore my reply and told mi tht he will bring out another small fish for mi with other sauces...LOlx..
and tht small fish is surprising to be rather quite a big portion tht i simply jus stare at it for a few seconds...hehs!
well, must be cos the meal i chose is New one, tht's y they need comment..
i must say, tht guy is polite and funny..haha! he dares to joke around and he noes his limit of not crossing over the line..=D
after tht FULLING and camwhoring dinner..
we brought our camwhoring session to outside ion..
LOVES tt big christmas tree and simply enjoy the lights inside the tree.. its glimmering with sparkles. nice view tht no flashlight is needed inside and together wif the music as accompaniment..
its another walk down from orchard to doby ghuat..
and we are sooo simply grateful to god tht we all managed to catch the last train home, if not, hailing a Cab will be such a killer..=.=''
pics will be up SOON, once i get my hp charged..=D
Name: ShijiA
